How HE Loves Us!!!!!
Earlier my post talked about how I met this guy and things got all touchy …during the first 2 days I was all excited ..yet those feelings and desires started to make me feel pressure….pressure of carrying God’s name yet not acting Godly….”Do not be unequally yoked with unbelievers. For what partnership has righteousness with lawlessness? Or what fellowship has light with darkness?” 2 Corinthians 6:14
The more I thought about, I more I felt that God is totally not pleased about what had happened….at first I was planing not to tell anyone but just wait and see what I should do…we just spent some time being cozy on the sofa that Sun afternoon…then I went to church feeling numb and felt lost touch with God….finally after the sermon I decided to talk to 2 of the sisters….and they prayed for me and reminded me that I really shouldn’t be that close with a guy right at the beginning, plus he’s not Christian… it’s not that he not a nice person…he actually has a lot of qualities that I love…just that what had happened wasn’t appropriate at all….so I could really sleep well cause I have no idea how to confront him….I even posted questions on “yahoo answers” and hoped that some Christians saw my post would give me some advice….I just felt so unpleasant in my mind….I did got some good advice from some people that I should figure out what the boundary should be and be clear to him that what I want and what I don’t want….so still kind of not sure how to handle the whole and been wondering the whole day today….so both of us have work shift tonight so I saw him at the work…and I was acting unnatural cause I couldn’t stop thinking about the whole thing….then after work…he wanted to give me a ride home. So we walked to his brother’s house to get his car…as we were walking along…he started talking to me about how he’s stress and what’s going on with his family and himself….it’s interesting that the feelings is different….as earlier I felt like he may just looking for action, or using me….yet at that moment he seemed to trust me and kept talking to me…and I was kind of quiet since I’m still confused. So the more I talked to him, I found out more about his family issues and his struggles with spiritual growth…all of a sudden I got excited….I kind of started to see what exactly is going on here—-someone is wondering about GOD!!! He told me that he’s been going with friends to youth groups on Fri night and he did accepted Jesus Christ yet there’s so much uncertainty that he doesn’t understand. I nearly yell “Praise the Lord” out loud once he talked to me about all these quotes in the Bible that he doesn’t understand…I cannot say that’s it but I guess God is giving me a project here…I was ashamed as he talked about the bible…caused he seems to have read more than I do….yet I seemed to heard God’s calling….this is not just a spiritual battle for me to learn to be faithful in Lord to resist the temptation of physical closeness, but it’s also a calling for tremendous spiritual growth in Christianity! I saw my path of how I grew into a Christian as he talked about his situation….and he has the heart to seek HIM! He even said that he started to feel that God is watching over for Him. I’m super happy!!!! Because I asked him to go to starbuck with me so we could talk that I was planning to bring up about how all the touchy things have to stop and we should be clear about the relationhsip between us….yet he just started up talking about Christianity…I was SO GLAD… we even went back to my place to read Bible together! Well my mistakes again that we did hugged and sat close together…yet I warned him that no kissing and no sensitive part touching… and he respected that…how I look at it is…God has taken care of this issue for me…I don’t need to worry about how to open up and tell him why we should keep a distance because I’m Christian, plus we’re just started to be friends. I did confront to him about that and he didn’t really say anything…still have to watch out! But there’s progress! So now I’m more clear about God’s prospective in this…that I don’t have to just walk away from him(which I was thinking to…) but helping him and hopefully we can grow together in Christ…i’m not really looking for a relationship, but I believe I can be friends with him for now.
Praise the Lord!!!!! Who takes care of EVERYTHING!!!!!!
P.S. I was starting to believe that he’s just looking for action…later afternoon he texted me a smiley face…then the horoscope says:
:Today is a 7. A person you sometimes find frustrating has also captured your heart. This is good. It keeps the relationship eternally interesting.”
………what I can say…………
